On 24th October, my maiden post begins here.

Current situation: Just transferred over to Air Wing from Hotel Wing after completion of CLM and preparing for service term here.

Feelings: Confused, unsure of the path ahead, wishes to be motivated but the direction has not been firm, cautious of those around me who might turn out to be a backstabber???

Rants: This really raw feeling of being surrounded by a totally new environment, the surge in numbers in the Wing and the prospects of working with some whom I feel I might have clashes with. Personality problem with me I suppose but things will have to work out along the way as the journey carries on.

Thinking back, it has really been a contradicting experience for me. Armed with a strong premonition of getting really punished badly, it had turned out as an irony. 150 push-ups in total for 2 weeks? But what I really gained, as I ponder back, was a method to find back my intrinsic motivation to strive. The 1000 sit ups was an impossible task, no matter how I visualized in my mind. However, the meaning is in the doing and once I found my purpose in carrying on, I realized that I could conquer everything else.

The Hotel Wing commander's words did set me thinking. "In a war, we have to be the gold medallist, never lower, for we MUST be the winners" "If you know the 'why', you will naturally complete the 'how'" "If you believe, you shall see" "To lead is to serve"

Such impactful words as fuel for inspiration and power for motivation.

And I really do miss my buddy whom I had for the past 2 weeks, Nicholas. It is tough to find a needle in a haystack, but harder to find a human whom you click well with, and as they always say, where 'great' men think alike. There's this feeling of being lost now.

With that being said, I realised how much I have been neglecting God, that I have somehow placed him as the last few of my priority list but He the Almight God has never compromised my place in Him. How shameful should I be then, to not reciprocate His ever enduring love. But I know I'll have to begin somewhere, and that somewhere is now.

Lets just hope that I will regain my course and set my compass right, right from the start of this very next day.